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Post by spookymonster on Jun 21, 2007 7:52:34 GMT -5
I'm sick of being the bottomless cup that holds everyone elses tears. I'm sick of seeing my future divide between 2 paths: misery and failure. I'm sick of not being able to tell my best friend how much she's hurting me. I'm sick of standing still in a crowd of sad faces, watching as they wait for me to join them. I'm sick of being told I'm having a 'midlife crisis' when I try to move away from that crowd. I'm sick from coming back from the greatest high in my life ('Roo), and having someone throw a panic attack in my face because I enjoyed myself too much.
Sorry... feeling real sh!tty this morning.... some major crud coming down the road in my life I think...
OOooooof ! When the happy go luckiest guy on this forum is in a funk like this, things must be bad. This, too, shall pass Spooky. Keep yer head up and all that. Steady forward progress. If it's not the solution, it's the pollution. Yet, tolerance and patience are virtues. It can only get better, then, EH ?! Karma to you cuz hugs don't send well over the internets !
For all the random smiles you have given me, I am rootin' fer ya !
Awww - if I was there I would give you a big hug! One of the major highlights of my entire weekend was getting to meet you - you are such a friendly outgoing guy. My only regret was that we never really got to hang out at any of the shows or at Joel's house - that really really sucked.
Post by spookymonster on Jun 21, 2007 9:18:41 GMT -5
Same here, Red; would've loved to hang with you and Boz. But then again, I can't say it kept me from having a good time as is.
Thanks also, Snoochio... I appreciate the sentiments.
I had just enough free time to myself at 'Roo to take a look at where I am and what I want in my life and the life of those I love. I realized that I'm somewhere between 2 extremes: I'm either a selfish @sshole willing to ruin an innocent life for a little (fleeting) personal happiness, or I'm a martyr, willing to go to my grave unhappy and unfulfilled rather than kick a loved one while they're already down.
My mother was a martyr, and that lead her to an early grave. My father was a selfish @sshole, and that lead him to a lonely one.
And from both of their "mistakes", you have gained understanding. My parents were exactly the same to the T. It won't be easy. With understanding comes a burden. You will be each parent at different times. But, you are blessed with self awareness, and it will give you the temperance to find balance. The struggle you'll feel is the reminder you have to keep it balanced.
But I'm pretty sure you know all this, and are mostly caught in a moment. I'd bet before the cat finishes another cob of corn, you'll be on the other side of this coin. Not at all to trivialize what you are dealing with---just know that it will get better. You will make it get better cuz you're that kind of guy. ok-enuff Stuart Smalley-but you know what i mean....
Post by ejamesglend on Jun 22, 2007 9:25:53 GMT -5
Awwww!! Poor spooky!
*hugs*!!
I'm sorry you're down right now. I think that you are a beautiful person(not a come on lol). Sometimes we just start stiring the pot in our brains and can't stop. If anyone in this f-ed up existence deserves happiness, it's people like you.
I really hope you're feeling better! Sometimes moods like these can be introspective which can lead to great changes in your life.
"My greatest hope is to laugh as much as cry; to get my work done and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return" Maya Angelou
"We can't do much about the length of our lives, but we can do plenty about it's width and depth" Evan Esar
"Discovery consists of seeing what everybody has seen, and thinking what nobody has thought." Albert Szent-Gyorgi
Post by spookymonster on Jun 22, 2007 9:46:02 GMT -5
Thanks everyone... I really do appreciate it, and the sympathy does help... At least I know I'm not entirely the monster I sometimes make myself out to be (no pun intended ). I'm trying not to make any rash moves in my life, half-hoping it's just a "post-Roo depression". But I think I've set some wheels in motion that may not be easily stopped... frankly, I don't know if I want them to stop. It's kinda cathartic to finally get some of this off my chest, but unfortunately, I know it's hurting someone I still love dearly very much. I only wish they had the same great support team I do here on the boards
"White collar conservative flashin down the street, pointing that plastic finger at me, they all assume my kind will drop and die, but I'm gonna wave my freak flag high." Jimi Hendrix
"White collar conservative flashin down the street, pointing that plastic finger at me, they all assume my kind will drop and die, but I'm gonna wave my freak flag high." Jimi Hendrix
Post by poopzilla33 on Jun 23, 2007 15:24:10 GMT -5
i hope everything works out for the best man. these things are hard but necessary; life is for living to the fullest, if you're not happy you gotta change something
heres some love from a good friend you've never met
Only got to meet you once at roo spooky, but you had that cute goofy grin on your face. Keep the good thoughts and they will get you thru the rough stuff.
Major sympathy for your funk. Been there, done that. So, as I have little karma to give (besides, I don't know how to bestow K anyway!) here are a few thoughts for Mid Life Crisis ...take it or leave it. Hope some of it helps and I will try to keep it short.
1. One is responsible for one's own happiness. Too often we feel responsible for the contentment and happiness for the people in our lives...but that responsibility can only go so far. Don't get me wrong, I give all I have to my family, but I cannot be the sole bearer of my SO's happiness!
I can only really be responsible for my own happiness.
2. Be wary of people who want to bring you down to their low.
2. Wait. Make no quick decisions. Give yourself a time table (say...3 months? 6 months?) and plan ahead both emotionally and financially for any major life changes.
). I'm trying not to make any rash moves in my life, half-hoping it's just a "post-Roo depression". But I think I've set some wheels in motion that may not be easily stopped... frankly, I don't know if I want them to stop. It's kinda cathartic to finally get some of this off my chest, but unfortunately, I know it's hurting someone I still love dearly very much. I only wish they had the same great support team I do here on the boards 
